Gymnasium for my soul…

I can’t quite wrap my mind and heart around the fact that it has only been 8 weeks since Len died.

Is it really only February 23rd?

It feels like I have been going through these difficult days for a very long time…

I can’t always find the words to explain what these 8 weeks have been like and I can’t quite describe what I anticipate the next 8 weeks to hold….

I know that I have had trouble returning to the gym…

I believe that the primary reason for that has been energy….

I seem to lack energy in these last 8 weeks…

I do know that grieving is hard work….

And so as I shared with a friend this week, I heard myself saying that it feels like I keep visiting the gymnasium for my soul….

I feel the ache of being stretched to new places in my heart….

I feel the challenge of learning to breathe through new routines…

I feel the tension of doing familiar things at a changed pace….

I feel the invitation to exercise new muscles…

I feel the embrace of fellow journeyers….

I hadn’t planned to be a frequent visitor to the gymnasium for my soul….

But I must say that after 8 weeks, I can feel some small changes taking shape….

I am thankful that I have learned the importance of spending time in the gymnasium for my soul….

And now to get back to the other gym!

Author: trishborgdorff

I am on a life long journey to live with integrity, honesty, kindness and full of grace. View all posts by trishborgdorff