Christmas is coming….

And it is hard to know what I feel….

We will be gathering as a family this coming weekend to celebrate Christmas together….

And yet as I write the above, it doesn’t feel right….

We will be gathering as a family but it won’t feel right….we will miss Len and our celebration will be dampened with our sorrow….

We will attempt to celebrate, but it feels different. It is hard to celebrate right now, but we will gather, and we will laugh, and we will cry, and we will enjoy being together….

We will do gifts and clues and poems….

We will honor our traditions….

It feels like odd and mysterious space, filled with deep valleys and a few hills that may allow us to stand above the deep ache for a short time…

I think we all agree how good it is to be together….

I think we all understand the feelings that are hard to put to words…

I think we all know that at any given time someone may be laughing, someone quiet and someone may be in tears…

I think the grief journey is hard and unpredictable, but it also has united our hearts in ways I never expected….

This weekend will be Christmas for my family….it will be incredibly difficult and amazingly wonderful….

Author: trishborgdorff

I am on a life long journey to live with integrity, honesty, kindness and full of grace.

5 thoughts on “Christmas is coming….”

  1. Each person deals with such mind-numbing, heart-rending grief in his or her own way. May you each be able to extend grace to the others as they deal with it in their own way.

    Like

  2. I am so moved by you and your family’s grace filled grieving. “Cast your burden upon the Lord, and He will sustain you (all.)”

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s