I am one week post op from eye surgery. I had a collection of abnormal cells on my cornea and so they scraped my cornea clean. I now have to wait for new membrane layers to grow back over my cornea. That my friends, is not a very scientific explanation, but it is what I understand I am waiting for. In the mean time, I am visually impaired as my left eye was affected due to my premature birth, I am learning much about limited vision.
I must say that I am keenly aware how I took my eyesight for granted. Even as I type, I can not see what I am writing, but trusting my body memory of the keyboard to put my thoughts on paper in some readable fashion. Normally I would write, proof, edit, rewrite, etc. Tonight you will get my raw thoughts.
There are many thoughts I could share from a week of being cared for and loved well by family and friends. But today, I realized that there is a life lesson I have learned this week. It is that rest brings clear vision. Now of course, as I heal, this is very evident. My blurry vision seems clearer when I have taken time to rest. When I worked today, I had a few hours of semi clarity after a good nights rest, but as time passed, it was evident to me when I needed to rest again.
I have noticed at the end of the day, I am not able to make sense of anything that requires focus. I am reminded, after resting, it will be better.
As i rested today, I realized this isn’t just about my eyes. I know when I am too busy, my vision for clarity in my thoughts and actions is impaired if I have not rested well. I know of the importance of Sabbath rest, I understand the need for a good nights sleep, I have learned what it means to rest my heart, mind and soul, and yet, this reminder today feels important.
I wonder if you know what it means to lose your clarity of vision because of weariness?
I wonder if you have experienced the benefit of renewing rest?
I wonder what might keep you from resting?
I am thankful to have people in my life who remind me, encourage me and allow me to rest.
I am looking forward to clear vision in the coming weeks. And I am grateful for what God is teaching me as I live these days through blurry eyes.
And with that, I will sign off for now and hope my thoughts are spelled correctly and readable with your clear vision. May you also find ways to rest your body, mind and soul, so your clarity of vision for God, yourself and others will be crystal clear!