Perspective…

It is 320 pm and I am up and ready for my day. I took today slow and did some sock sorting and computer work in the comforts of my bed, as a morning storm blew through West Michigan. I must say that I feel a bit uncertain of each next moment as I adjust to a body without any estrogen. I had expected physical pain and the need for getting up and down the stairs and keeping myself moving, but I did not fully prepare for the emotional waves that come and go as fast as this mornings storm…

But I talked to my Doc today and was reminded that surgery is trauma and my body is adjusting. He has a plan and that will begin next week, but for now, he encouraged me to let each moment be my guide. He reminded me to be as active as my pain and fatigue allowed me and to sleep whenever I felt tired. It was a good pep talk to not allow emotional waves hold me hostage but to keep moving and keep resting and discover what my body is needing…

And so I got up and got dressed and Dutch and I went for a walk and I am keenly aware of my body….and it is good!

And so, today, I leave you with this picture and ask you where will you find life today?

Father’s Day 2012

Happy Father’s Day to my Dad….

My Dad is a man of not so many words but deep conviction and passionate heart.

I am so thankful for the man I call my Dad.

His laugh is contagious…

His leadership is strong…

His faith is unshakeable…

His influence has touched many people all over the world…

His vision is full of hope…

His love is deeply rooted…

His playfulness is comical…

His loyalty always believes the best…

His prayers are sincere…

He is a man of his word….

I am thankful on this Father’s Day for a father who lives from his convictions and has a passionate heart.

I am thankful on this Father’s Day for a father who was recently quoted in this way:

Borgdorff was asked to give the concluding prayer. Borgdorff started out by asking God to come into the hearts of everyone there so that they can help to bring reunion and reconciliation between people in the world and that their lives can be a model of the unity the church has in Christ.  He ended by praying: “God, give us the courage to say what needs to be said and to be able to stand up for what is right.” (full article can be read at http://www.crcna.org/news.cfm?newsid=3455&section=1#.T9qopaj7hK8.facebook)

I am thankful on this Father’s Day that this father is mine!  Well, and the father of my siblings!  🙂 

I love you Dad!

 

31 days of healing….

I am writing you today from my couch at home, two days post op from my hysterectomy.

I am way better than I imagined in every aspect compared to what I was expecting…

My history both with endometrisois and surgery and recovery have positioned me to prepare for the worst…

So far this journey is much different than expected…

Surgery was expected to be complicated, involved and lengthy…

It was straight forward and uneventful. My Doc said that was the surgery he dreaded for 14 years and it was anticlimactic. That was a shock to us all, but something we are grateful for!

I had prepared to stay up to five days in the hospital. It was great to sleep in my own bed after one night.

My body is not as sore as I expected, sleep is easier than I anticipated, my emotions are more erratic than I was prepared for and today I am finding that I am reevaluating what it looks like to recover…

I have to remind myself I had surgery and even with a positive outcome, healing takes time.

I have decided to establish 31 days of healing as I journey these days. I have already battled the demons of my mind wondering what I will do now that I am home….

During my 31 days of healing I am focusing on the following:

Nutrition, hydration, walking, reading, resting, reflecting….

I am not sure what this journey will look like or produce, but I can say that on day one,

I am hoping for a body that will be completely healed…

I am hoping for a soul that has rested beside the still waters and is fully restored…

I am hoping for an energy that is rearing to go and live the rest of the summer…

But for now, I am putting my feet up and taking a nap with my loyal companion Dutch at my feet….

It sure is good to be home!

 

 

 

Be Back Soon….

I have blogged every day since January 01, 2010. It has been a process of reflection, discipline, discovery and wonder.

I have been surprised at times at what thoughts come out of the tips of my fingers….

I have laughed and I have wept while writing…

I have wondered why anyone would read and I have been in awe of the support and affirmation from those of you who read my thoughts…

It has been my desire to invite you on a journey to my heart, hoping that in my writing, you will also journey closer to your own heart….

And yet as I anticipate surgery Thursday morning, I am realizing that there may will be an interruption in my blogging.

I thought about writing ahead or recruiting guest bloggers, but I realize that in this short season, the journey to my heart requires rest….

I don’t plan to be gone for long….

I don’t plan to stop thinking while I rest, and believe I will have much to write about as I allow many to support and love me in new ways…

And so, I am signing off and will write sporadically as healing, energy and time allows. I honestly believe I will have a lot of time, so who knows, maybe you will hear from me more than I think! 🙂

Thank you for being a reader of my blog….

 

The power of healing…

A while back I burned my hand. Today I have a bright pink, soft scar. This scar is a vivid reminder to me of how the body heals itself….

My Mom has recently journeyed the road of a broken ankle. From before the surgery to pins and plates to almost complete healing, I am reminded of how the body heals itself….

I see the bumps and bruises and scabs that cover the knees and elbows of my nieces and nephews and I am reminded of how the body heals itself…

I have seen friends and loved ones journey through cancer and disease and I am reminded how the body heals itself….

I am choosing to go into my surgery this week focusing on the power of healing….

I am choosing to go into my surgery this week focusing on the miracle of healing…

I am choosing to go into surgery in awe of the mystery of healing….

I am choosing to go into my surgery deeply grateful for the hand of God in healing….

I am choosing to go into my surgery believing more than i have ever allowed my own mind to believe…that every day and in so many ways, my body will be healing itself…

Thank you Jesus….

Passionate, purposeful and fun…

I would use these three words to describe my sister-in-law Jonna…Passionate, purposeful and fun!

Although distance prevents us from celebrating on my deck for her birthday, I want to tribute her tonight.

Joanna is passionate about whatever she does. Once she has given something her all, whatever the event, they will get all of her!

Jonna will promote, show up, cheer lead, coach, encourage, serve, run, manage and do whatever it takes to make the day, the week, the month, the season, the person the best it or they can be!

Jonna is purposeful about what she is involved in. When someone is as passionate as she is, there isn’t time to be involved in every activity, and so I have known Jonna to select her activities with purpose.

Jonna is fun to be with and is valued for her insight, intellect and inspiration. 

Happy Birthday Jonna….

I hope this year will bring you deep satisfaction as you continue to advocate, serve, develop, inspire, coach and mentor in most everything you do!

Safety net sisters….

Happy Birthday to my younger sister Suzi…

Suzi is someone I talk to every day and I am known to call her more than once a day…

Suzi is someone I can laugh with, cry with or laugh until I cry…..

Suzi is someone I enjoy hanging with or watching their three kids so she can hang with Andy…

Suzi is full of beauty, grace, love and compassion….

Suzi is committed to  loving on and nurturing her family and home…

Suzi is a leader at Church and school and committed to being a change agent for good….

Suzi is not perfect but she is wonderful. I love that we live close and share much….

I found a quote that says much of how we live….through thick and through thin….in good times and bad….

“Sisters function as safety nets in a chaotic world simply by being there for each other.”

Thanks Suzi for bring my safety net and for trusting me to be yours….

I hope this year will be wacky and wonderful, filled with laughter, love and lasting memories!

I love you,

Trish