sabotage my sabotage…

sab·o·tage

http://sp.dictionary.com/dictstatic/d/g/speaker.swf [sab-uh-tahzh, sab-uh-tahzh]  Show IPAnoun, verb, -taged, -tag·ing.

–noun

1.

any underhand interference with production, work, etc., in a plant, factory, etc., as by enemy agents during wartime or by employees during a trade dispute.
2.

any undermining of a cause.
I am keenly aware that on this journey to my heart, it has benefited me greatly to understand my ways of sabotage. I recognize that often what I most desire is also what I often fear achieving. I long to be fit and healthy and yet at some level I wonder what will be different in my life when I get there, what will I strive to achieve when I am at my goal weight, how will I feel different, what new strengths will I uncover or discover and how will it be to have a body that is defined. In my commitment to wellness,  I can honestly say that I have learned to embrace that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, which has led me on a journey of love and acceptance for myself and my body.
And so in the last few weeks I have hit a plateau in my weight loss numbers, I can feel myself start to slide in my attentiveness to the details of my food intake. I am happy to say that the scale hasn’t gone up much in my apathy, but it is not only about the scale. It is about the fact that in my disappointment I have started to subtly sabotage. I have started to wonder why work so hard if the scale doesn’t move anyway. I have started to weigh myself less and rationalize more….
It is time to SABOTAGE MY SABOTAGE….
And so tonight I recognize I need to acknowledge my disappointment that the scale seems stuck AND stay committed to my goal. I have re-entered into a conversation with my trainer Demond about what my day needs to include for nutrition and what numbers I need to hit for protein, carbs and fat in my food. I have packed my gym back to ensure I have what I need when i go to workout….from Ipod to water bottle, head band and bubble gum. I have committed to living proactively and it feels right. I feel empowered and I like that feeling so much better than the feeling of defeat when I am in a
Consider where you may need to sabotage your sabotage today and reclaim some ground!

 

Author: trishborgdorff

I am on a life long journey to live with integrity, honesty, kindness and full of grace.

3 thoughts on “sabotage my sabotage…”

  1. Keep on keeping on! It can be so difficult. This is an especially bad time of year – we are SO sick of winter and feel like it’s going to last forever, so we tend to get down and sluggish and lose inspiration. But let’s all dig deep and keep moving toward our goals!

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