sab·o·tage
http://sp.dictionary.com/dictstatic/d/g/speaker.swf [sab-uh-tahzh, sab-uh-tahzh] 
Show IPAnoun, verb, -taged, -tag·ing.
–noun
1.
any underhand interference with production, work, etc., in a plant, factory, etc., as by enemy agents during wartime or by employees during a trade dispute.
2.
any undermining of a cause.
I am keenly aware that on this journey to my heart, it has benefited me greatly to understand my ways of sabotage. I recognize that often what I most desire is also what I often fear achieving. I long to be fit and healthy and yet at some level I wonder what will be different in my life when I get there, what will I strive to achieve when I am at my goal weight, how will I feel different, what new strengths will I uncover or discover and how will it be to have a body that is defined. In my commitment to wellness, I can honestly say that I have learned to embrace that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, which has led me on a journey of love and acceptance for myself and my body.
And so in the last few weeks I have hit a plateau in my weight loss numbers, I can feel myself start to slide in my attentiveness to the details of my food intake. I am happy to say that the scale hasn’t gone up much in my apathy, but it is not only about the scale. It is about the fact that in my disappointment I have started to subtly sabotage. I have started to wonder why work so hard if the scale doesn’t move anyway. I have started to weigh myself less and rationalize more….
It is time to SABOTAGE MY SABOTAGE….
And so tonight I recognize I need to acknowledge my disappointment that the scale seems stuck AND stay committed to my goal. I have re-entered into a conversation with my trainer Demond about what my day needs to include for nutrition and what numbers I need to hit for protein, carbs and fat in my food. I have packed my gym back to ensure I have what I need when i go to workout….from Ipod to water bottle, head band and bubble gum. I have committed to living proactively and it feels right. I feel empowered and I like that feeling so much better than the feeling of defeat when I am in a
Consider where you may need to sabotage your sabotage today and reclaim some ground!