The heart break of grief….

I am aware that I did not blog yesterday…

I have so many feelings in my heart and yet the words are hard to find…

broken heartI lay in a hotel room and am surrounded by picture boards and my heart breaks….

I reflect on my day and think of the number of Naval Commanders I spoke to about funeral planning and my heart breaks…

I reflect on the hugs and the silence, the tears and the laughter and my heart breaks….

I reflect on the many comments posted in the obit guest book and my heart breaks…

I reflect on the pictures and memories with Len and I realize there will be no more and my heart breaks…

I reflect on the faces of  Marcia, Olivia, Noah, Sonta and Jean Marc and my heart breaks….

And yet…

We  speak of Len and share memories and we laugh and I smile….

We speak of Len and all he brought to each of us and I smile…

We speak of Len’s influence, his faith, his passion, his play and we smile….

We experience the love of a community who loved Len and we are blessed…

It is hard to find words and the deep ache of grief is always present…

I know we are not the only ones who have ever walked this journey….

I trust in time, the ache may change…

It is hard when I wish time would stand still because I dread the burial of my fun-loving, adventure filled, wonderful brother and when I want time to quickly move us beyond this indescribable deep ache…

Author: trishborgdorff

I am on a life long journey to live with integrity, honesty, kindness and full of grace.

2 thoughts on “The heart break of grief….”

  1. I wish I could take away the deep ache for you, my sweet and tender friend. I will hold my corner of the net for as long as it takes. I love you.

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