A day full of very sweet moments…

Friday I attended the funeral of a man who has always been very dear to my heart, Mr. Earl Vander Meulen.

Earl Vander Meulen’s Obituary

I met Mr Vander Meulen when our family moved to Holland and my Dad became the Pastor at Bethany CRC. I was entering the 9th grade and it was a time that felt full of transition and uncertainty. I came to really enjoy Sundays because I believed Bethany CRC was blessed with some of the most very kind people.

It has been 22 years since we left Holland and that in itself felt shocking to me as we drove into the Church parking lot.

22 years is a long time, but it all felt as if I had just walked back in time and was home. My Mom, Suzi and I remembered scenes with amazing clarity. We named the names of people who were walking into church. People looked the same, the scene’s in my memory felt oddly familiar and the feelings in my heart swelled with sweetness….

As we stood in the back of church and connected with so many familiar faces, my eye was drawn to the casket. I felt a pang in my heart. A man who was always present with a smile and a hug was missing. I stood by his body, I felt the ache, and it was evident to me that a good man had been claimed for his eternal home!

As I sat in the pew and looked around, I was reminded of the gift I had been given at Bethany. During a difficult transition in my life, I had been given a place to worship. In High School I worshiped as I knew how and yesterday I realized that I knew and understood very little about who God was and who I was back then. I also realized that it was in people like Mr Vander Meulen that I experienced faith in action….

I had been given a gift in the people who surrounded me, believed in me and loved me.

I had been given a gift to experience my Dad’s leadership, both in his preaching of the Word and in his day-to-day loving and leading of the congregation. My Dad seemed right at home in the pulpit yesterday and I was reminded again of my Dad’s passion for the Church and it’s people.

I had been given a gift in the years we were at Bethany CRC….a gift that fits into a perfect spot in my heart still today, a gift that I have even a deeper appreciation for after yesterday, a gift of kind people who loved me well and embraced me….

As we remembered this very dear man together on Friday morning, I was struck by God’s use of people to deepen faith…

I can almost hear Mr Vander Meulen minimize his impact, but in that struggle to embrace his deep goodness, I can also see his eyes twinkle and his grin reach from ear to ear. Mr Vander Meulen was one of the people in my High School faith story. He endured enjoyed his leadership as a youth group leader and was a faithful man of deep faith.

Friday morning was a very sweet morning for me….

Friday morning left me with good reminders of my faith journey…

Friday morning was a morning I will not quickly forget, as I said good-bye to a man I enjoyed and was reminded of God’s promises, provision, presence and comfort!

To God be the Glory!

Every loss is a gain…

I think I am finally understanding that slow and steady wins the race…

As many of you know, I have been on a wellness journey for a number of years. I have no regrets about the journey and I can honestly say with each season of the journey I am learning about living well, loving well and sabotaging the sabotage…

I am very focused once again and yet this season carries much hope for me to reach my goal.

I have learned the freedom that goes along with my choices dictating the scale instead of the scale dictating my choices…

I have learned the contentment in my heart that comes from sticking totally to a plan…

I have learned the delight of celebrating weekly decline on the scale and embracing that every loss is a gain…

And most of all I have embraced fully that I am loved and fully accepted by my family, friends and myself,  regardless of what the scale says…

And so for all of you who are working to achieve a healthier weight or lifestyle, may I offer you hope to press on!  Identify a goal and go for it with all your heart. I have learned that goals can be inspired when others believe in you, but goals will only be reached, when you believe in yourself!

 

“Listen to your heart above all other voices.”

This is one of my favorites sayings and hangs on my wall at home…

Now, don’t get me wrong. I am a person of faith and I am not saying that I listen to my heart more than where God speaks, but often I find God speaking in the voice of my heart….

And so today this came to my mind as the pace at the office took off with lightening speed….

I thought about skipping my workout and yet I know the voice of my heart that is committed to wellness (and weight loss) and so I chose to listen to my heart….

I thought about how busy the day was becoming and yet knew the importance of taking time to connect well with caregivers who come into the office….so I chose to listen to my heart…

I knew the call that came in during my meeting was a person who was deeply aching…so I chose to listen to my heart and call her quickly back even though she didn’t leave a message…

I have to remind myself throughout every day to listen to my heart….and to act on it!

I wonder what your heart is telling you….

Are you listening?

Food for thought….

I really enjoy a long weekend and especially the summer holidays…

But today I find myself asking the recurring question…what day is it anyway?

As much as I loved yesterday, today I craved my normal Monday. Now tomorrow it is Wednesday already….

It didn’t take me long to realize I would be more beneficial to focus my thoughts on something more productive on this fuzzy Tuesday.

So how is this for food for thought….

Moral excellence comes about as a result of habit.

We become just by doing just acts…

temperate by doing temperate acts…

brave by doing brave acts.~Aristotle

How is your journey to moral excellence?

I wonder what kind of acts are shaping your being…. generosity, gratitude, selfishness, bitterness, prayer, courage, radical living….

When I begin to feed my mind deeper thoughts,  it doesn’t really matter what day it is!

I have choices to make  and a habits to form or strengthen.

Journey well my friends and live intentional, becoming the person you desire to be!

Bless the Lord O my soul, O my soul….

I almost always have the radio on and I come and go from the car no matter what song is on….unless Bless the Lord O my soul is on….that one I will always wait till it is over before I continue on with my plan of coming and going…

There is something about the song, the words, the music and the meaning that captivate me every time…

Some of it is that I learned it at the funeral of 11-year-old Gerrit. I remember reading the post from his sweet mother a few days before the funeral inviting us all to learn this song because she heard it and knew we all needed to sing it at the funeral….

I hear it and I think of the anguish that must fill a mother’s heart (and a family’s heart) still today after saying good-bye to their son and brother, and to choose to sing….”sing like never before, o my soul, worship His holy name….” This will always remind me of the courage of a family that is pressing on, trusting God’s goodness when they could choose so many other thoughts….

Perhaps it is a song that reminds me to focus my thoughts…

Perhaps it is a song that invites my heart to sing out loud and declare what I believe…

Perhaps it is a song that reminds me that God invites me to consider 10,000 reasons and not just the one or two I feel stuck on…

Perhaps it is a song that invites me to sing from the new day dawning till the evening comes…

And so I hope that each day you will also sing like never before and find hope, even in the darkest moments….

In honor of the sweet boy who now lives with Jesus, I will sing….

Bless the Lord O my soul, O my soul, worship His holy name

sing like never before, O my soul, I’ll worship your Holy name!

 

The joy of a three year old…

I am enjoying the day with Johanna….

She is a great conversationalist and I am fascinated by how our connections to people start at such a young age….

These have been some of the recurring (in some form or another) phrases from today….

Did you know my Dad’s name is Andy…

Did you know my Mom’s name is Suzi…

I love my brother’s so much…

They love me even more….

I am sure Papa is missing me…

I wonder who Papa is sharing his ice cream with…

I bet Beppe and Beppe Dot wished I was with them…

Do you know how to make peanut butter and jelly…

I think I am Dutch’s favorite three-year old girl….

Aunt Trish, do you love me so much…

Did you know Alex Avila is my tiger…

Aunt Trish, I have so many friends, maybe more than you….

And I nod and smile and chuckle and marvel at this three-year old wonder. She has taught me how to care for her baby doll, kissing her dolls head when it cries and corrects me when I thought the baby was crying by telling me she doesn’t really cry. She has shown me today that she is important to others and others are important to her. There is no doubt that God created us for relationship and spending a day with the innocence of this relational heart is plain delightful!

And her closing thought to me as I lay in bed with her and watch the Tigers is Aunt Trish, please put your computer down now cause I want to snuggle and go to sleep…..

And with that I am going to scratch her back and sing a song!

She believed she could…so she did….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I was naming this blog and this is what I wrote…

She thought she could so she did…

Then I went back and realized the actual word is BELIEVED…

She thought believed she could….so she did!

I was struck by my wrong word.

I often think too much and not believe enough…

It has been fun to think about thinking less and believing more…

It has been even more fun to believe more and see how it changes my actions…

I wonder what you would do differently in life if you thought less and believed more…

Would your belief change small things in your day-to-day…

Would your belief change your relationships…

Would your belief infuse hope in your heart…

I am finding that believing does all of those things…

Give it a try….

 

Man is made by his belief. As he believes, so he is.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe