It is hard to imagine that one year ago on the 12th, we learned of such devastation as a result of the earthquake in Haiti. The news stories for weeks after brought me to tears and I wondered how a person and community dealt with such despair and devastation. My friend Kerline sent us first hand reports from her country, the land of Haiti. I wanted to share some of that with you today. I believe the country of Haiti remains in dire need of so much. Pray with me, on the anniversary of the earthquake, that God would provide in magnificent ways for the many needs of the Haitian people. And yet, it is also my prayer that I may keep my eyes focused on Jesus in the midst of destruction and devastation. It seems we have plenty of that right here in the USA and I for one, can learn from Kerline’s perspective.

Dear friends,

It’s a moment of great sorrow for us. Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we can’t stop  crying, at the moment that I email you I can’t stop crying when I hear these people who are still under the collapsed buildings still alive after about four/five days and we are incapable to help them. It’s so hard when you hear people call for help under the building especially children, friends, and you can’t do anything.

My nieces and my nephews by miracle left their schools on time. They saw their friends under the blocks, their schoolmates cried for help, ask for water, one of my nieces tried to find water in vain. Babies, young people, elders we are all traumatized. Thousands of people still sleep in the yard or the public park or on the street where there are many dead people, etc… the situation is out of control for the government. Many people could be saved if only we had adequate equipment and expert to help them. The people that come to help is not enough, and our airport is out of service can’t receive the people who would like to come to help, it really something that we can’t explain.

Nobody wants to stay inside the houses, some of us who had some food and water try to eat once a day, we drink very small amount of water, several families join together and put all their food together. In my backyard, I have 4 families with 32 people who are taking refuge from the devastated neighborhoods. One of this family with about 12 people will not be able to go back home because the house is dangerous. But we are so grateful because we still find some food to eat; we know that so many people do not have any food or water so we feel like we are special. For how many days we will live like that? For how many days we will have food and water, nobody knows?

Still, we will not find the good words to thank God enough because we are not injured. When we hear people who are injured in the hospital since three days crying, suffering, the staffs in the hospitals are insufficient, the doctors and the nurses themselves are also victims, some of them lost their children, spouse, or other family members, so even they try to help the others, and they are suffering in their heart. Many hospitals, banks, businesses, are destroyed, many employees are died, and many business people or entrepreneurs are died. Most of the universities, many many schools (I can’t even count) are falling down with many many students, the situation is catastrophic…

In the same time I mail you, the earth just shake again, we are traumatized.

Many people lost all they spend all their lives to build, but they are alive and they are grateful.

There are some things that I would like to tell you in this specific moment:

We have some positive points that I would like to highlight

  • The sacrifice of Calvary is the biggest things that teach me the meaning of the word “Grace”, but from this experience I can tell that yes Jesus is so compassionate,  my family and I are alive today only by grace.
  • I call on Jesus time to time, but that very day, I can’t tell you I how many times I call on him and I have to tell you, He came right away and deliver us
  • People in Haiti especially those who ignore the existence of our mighty God are now confess there is a God.  Everywhere you go in Haiti right now, people Christian or not pray, they are very grateful to God, they share testimonies of this great miracle.
  • At last, I think that my family and I have to continue to trust God 100% and live by faith. How will be Haiti in one month, one year, five years …? Who will be the next leader? We definitely need a good leader to manage this devastated country?  God knows. All our plans will have to be revised.
  • If God accept to deliver us, there is a purpose for that.

I wept when I heard all those help that come from other countries to help us, especially United States of America. I wept when I read all your emails, friends from us, Africa, Europe, Thank you so much for your prayers. I love you all. I feel so special to have you as a family in Christ.

Your sister in Christ,


Invitation for guest bloggers….

I am really enjoying daily blogging and I have found that I am more aware of how my day unfolds. I watch for amazing moments, ordinary happenings or moments that cause me to pause and say hmmm….

I look forward to documenting the year and looking back on 2011 for years to come. I believe that this year will hold scenes where I will clearly see the power of God, the unity of my family, the depth of my friendships and the transformation of my self. I am thankful for the tools available to me to document my day-to-day in this fashion.

But I am aware that the Journey to My Heart happens in the presence of community. It seems only right then that I call for guest bloggers and invite you to share this space with me. If you would like to share a bit on a topic of your heart, just leave a comment and I will be in touch with you.

If you would like me to blog on a certain topic, please leave me that in the comments section as well. It is always good to open my mind to new ideas…

And that is all for tonight….a simple invitation…

What is your word…

My friend Linda posed the question on her FB this past week. What is your word to carry you through 2011. I responded without much thinking ~ Movement.

I am not thinking about only physical movement, although, my plans for 2011 very much include that, but movement in many areas of my life. As I reflect back, I think the times my soul was most numb was when my life was stagnant. I don’t ever want to return to a numb or dead feeling and I believe that there are a number of ways I can choose every day to support my desire to experience movement in my life.

I believe that movement comes from activity, attitude, opportunity and rest. In the area of activity I have great community and accountability. I have a workout plan and a goal in mind. I have friends on the same journey who understand the mountain tops, valleys and long never-ending dirt roads that lead you places. I want to choose activity that leads me to good places in 2011.

I believe that movement comes as a result of my attitudes. I want to have attitudes that lead me into new places. I am keenly aware that I have the power to shut down many good things, in a single thought. I want my attitudes in 2011 to be attitudes that challenge me (and others) to grow and move. I hope that above all else, I will live with an attitude of Grace, inviting myself and others to remember that Grace is often an attitude that frees us up to live well.

I believe that movement comes as a result of my opportunities. I am learning to open my eyes to the opportunities that surround me EVERY day. Sometimes the opportunities are different than I planned and therefore challenge my attitudes. 🙂 I see opportunities to engage in conversations with others, share honestly about a recent joy or hardship in my own life, to read a new book that challenges me in ways, and to live in the moment, fully aware of what is unfolding within me and around me. Opportunity is a great proponent of movement as long as I remain flexible and embrace an attitude of adventure.

And last, I believe that movement comes as a result of rest. I have learned on this journey to my heart, that if I am not selecting times to rest, I will not see all that lies within me and around me. It is when resting that I am keenly aware of my family and friends, my struggles and successes, my longings and my blessings and the attitudes that fill my heart and mind. Resting is not done while on Facebook, as much of us like to believe, but it is done in the quiet space of your heart, and it is a kind decision to build in rest time, no matter how old you are.

And so, I believe in December of 2011, I will have stories of movement to share. I wonder what your word is for 2011. I wonder in what ways you will carry out the vision you have to live in a certain fashion. I want it for me…and I want that for you!


Defeating the lies I believe…

I am a woman who likes to think and process. I am often listening for the message underneath the words, the meaning in between the lines and the conversation that might fill the silence. Through my involvement with Open Heart Ministries, I have learned about the power of the lies we believe. I have learned that we all have places where we believe  lies which shape our attitudes and behaviors.

The lie I defeated today is that people my size don’t do yoga. Cause I did and was amazed that it isn’t at all like I had created in my thinking. I identified last night, when I committed to going, that I would be facing that lie head on. I went in aware that I needed to replace that lie with some new thoughts.

Now, I would say that I was the biggest in the room size wise, but I began to look at other things. There was a variety of ages and I could tell we were all at different fitness levels. And when I stopped comparing, I noticed that everyone was there to focus on their own journey, and when I did the same, it was quite an enjoyable hour.

Yoga takes much more strength than I had imagined and the flexibility required is definitely an area I can improve in. I was able to do many of the poses and started to learn the language. I enjoyed the experience and the time with my Mom and I look forward to next Saturday again.

In some of my daily thinking, I have thought it would be good to identify one lie a day that I believe and am living from and replace it with a truth statement. Amazing to consider that in 2011 I will name more than 300 lies that have taken root in my heart and mind. I wonder if you might join me in this challenge?

A new experience…

Tomorrow morning I will be getting up to go to my first yoga class.

It seems a bit unreal to me. When I think of Yoga, this is what I envision:

And if it isn’t this….it might be something like this…..

And, I can tell you this, I am changing and growing and learning to be more nimble, but that I can not do….

So, why am I going to yoga?

I am going because this journey is about trying new things, living outside of my comfort zone and because I know  that my Mom loves yoga. She has come along side me many times in this wellness journey and adjusted her schedule to support me. I am realizing that while on this wellness journey, most of my days are focused around my needs. I feel like it is about my schedule, my food plan, my workout needs and my routines. I realize this is a season and I need to do much of that to stay focused and press ahead towards my goal. But I want to intentionally choose places every day where I set my needs aside and ensure I am looking to others.

I want to go to yoga to be with my Mom and experience this with her. To be the follower into the class and live through the angst I feel when embarking into space that feels quite foreign. And it is only a six-week class. If it isn’t for me, I don’t have to try it again, but I am pretty sure I will learn something valuable along the way.

So, as I pick out my yoga clothes and try to envision what the hour might be like, I keep thinking about the quote I know on courage….”courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.” I will be going to yoga tomorrow with an attitude of courage, not the roaring courage, but the kind that says, I will keep trying and learn about myself along the way!

And maybe in May, when I reach my goal weight and hit the Biggest Loser Season 11 Finale in California with some of my Fitness North friends, I will share a yoga  pose and post it for you…just maybe…because I have learned to never say never!

Tribute to livi lou


Dear Olivia Grace,

I can’t believe today you are 14 years old. I love your heart, your passion, your compassion, your drive, your smile, your energy, your positive thinking, your ponytail, your creativity, your athletic ability, your courage, your laugh, your love for your family and your interest in helping those who have less than you do.

God has gifted you with a big and sensitive heart and I believe you will make a big difference in the lives of others. I love how you are curious about your faith and that you want to experience God in your everyday life. I am so very thankful that God chose me to be your aunt and my life is enriched by you. It is my hope and prayer that you will continue to learn about your amazing beauty and that you will be loved, cherished and adored even more than you love, cherish and adore others!

And so Livi Lou, continue to stand tall and lead your friends in amazing ways. Continue to learn new things, risk in new ways and make bold decisions! Take time to be kind to yourself and know it is ok to enjoy a day of doing nothing at all. Ask for what you need and remember I love you so much and hope and pray that this year will be one where you feel fully alive!

I love you tons and tons….forever and ever!

Aunt Trish



How badly do I want it…

I have been struck lately by all the factors that must come together at the same time for me to reach my weight loss goal. I am more and more aware that this journey is less about the scale and more about the shaping of my body, heart and soul. I am learning about my self-control, self-discipline, self motivation and so much more. The need to set a goal, outline a plan, plan for the plan, stick to the plan and adjust the plan as needed is an amazing process. I am learning that the focus and energy required is something I must regularly recommit to.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I am doing well since my return from Fitness North. I am consistently losing weight and learning about my new routines and habits. I realize it is difficult to push myself as hard as I worked at Fitness North. I realize it is easier to choose not to work out than to work out. I often think of the message from Fitness North…DEVIATION FROM THE PLAN IS NOT AN OPTION. And yet I make it an option. I am going to recommit to that today. To not deviate from the plan, because I have my eye on a prize. The prize I am longing for is to be fit, healthy and active. I am closer today than I have been in a long time. I am happy to say that, but I must stay focused and committed. I must stick to my plan.

I wonder if you have set a goal you are going to reach in 2011. O’Neal Hampton reminded us that a vision without a plan is an illusion. Does your vision have a plan? Does your plan have action steps that you can take? Have you asked a good friend to hold you accountable. Keep your eye on the prize and start moving in that direction. I would love to celebrate with you. I plan to have lots to celebrate this year. And celebration is always more fun with others!

Ask yourself “how long am I going to work to make my dreams come true?” I suggest you answer, “as long as it takes.” (taken from The Human Spirit)