I believe one of the hardest things to do in all of this is to walk away….
I was gripped with sadness tonight as I stood at the casket knowing the time of “being with” Len is drawing to a close.
The next 24 hours give me the hard to breathe kind of feeling….
To think about walking away is almost more than I can bear…
And yet I envision faces and feel hugs and know that we do not walk this journey alone….brokenness
And so tonight in the walking away I felt the sobs overtake my body and I was embraced by my Mom in all of her own …
I know there are bright spots in the tragedy in the faces, the words, the prayers, the embrace…
But in many ways the tragedy still feels bigger…
I know the lights will continue to shine brighter and in time the light will shine brighter…in time…yes in time….
Exactly my thoughts. I cannot find sleep, and for once that matters not. My thoughts are everywhere. Len, our first born and all the love and heartache that culminate in this moment of time. With words spoken and words not said at our gatherings where we celebrate Len’s life and where we, for this moment, speak freely of our love for each other. Where life and breath and differences are cause for celebration, not rejection. We hug, we affirm and at some level acknowledge that God is good. Rest in peace. May God guard your spirit until we all know exactly what this “life after death” means. This I do know, love never fails.
Your fellow traveler on this journey of life and death…your mom
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So beautifully said. “And the greatest of these is love”.
You & your family have been on my mind all day today….HUGS & PRAYERS to you all…..
And yet herein there are found “unexpected blessings.”
“The snares of death encompassed me; the pangs of (hell) laid hold on me; I suffered distress and anguish, Then I called on the name of the Lord: O Lord, I prayed, save my life. Gracious is the Lord and righteous; our God is merciful. The Lord protects the simple; when I was brought low, he saved me.” Ps.116
Our dear friends, how honored we were to share in the service of witness to the resurrection and celebration of Len’s life. What a man among men he clearly was. How irreplacable in your family circle. My only hope for healing is your great faith, the bedrock of your lives, and the friends who will walk with you in your grief. Thinking of you with love.