I am aware that I did not blog yesterday…
I have so many feelings in my heart and yet the words are hard to find…
I lay in a hotel room and am surrounded by picture boards and my heart breaks….
I reflect on my day and think of the number of Naval Commanders I spoke to about funeral planning and my heart breaks…
I reflect on the hugs and the silence, the tears and the laughter and my heart breaks….
I reflect on the many comments posted in the obit guest book and my heart breaks…
I reflect on the pictures and memories with Len and I realize there will be no more and my heart breaks…
I reflect on the faces of Marcia, Olivia, Noah, Sonta and Jean Marc and my heart breaks….
And yet…
We speak of Len and share memories and we laugh and I smile….
We speak of Len and all he brought to each of us and I smile…
We speak of Len’s influence, his faith, his passion, his play and we smile….
We experience the love of a community who loved Len and we are blessed…
It is hard to find words and the deep ache of grief is always present…
I know we are not the only ones who have ever walked this journey….
I trust in time, the ache may change…
It is hard when I wish time would stand still because I dread the burial of my fun-loving, adventure filled, wonderful brother and when I want time to quickly move us beyond this indescribable deep ache…
Hugs…..
We are praying for you all
I wish I could take away the deep ache for you, my sweet and tender friend. I will hold my corner of the net for as long as it takes. I love you.